So here I am.
A new mother. An artist. A fiance. A blogger. A twenty something. A lost soul. Someone with a mental illness. Someone on the Journey to Recovery. Someone on a million journeys at once with a million different purposes.
And you?
What are you? Who are you? Are you like me? Probably. At least just a little.
Everyday is a struggle, even for those who don’t suffer from mental illnesses, I think there are many struggles everyday, every week, every year.
But do you want to know something? The little achievements count and matter just as much as the big ones do.
I am a dreamer, someone who focuses on the big picture. I want what I want and I want it now (as I was typing that, I chuckled to myself because I wonder where my 4 month old gets the same thing from!). I want to be healthy and happy, now. I want results, now. Maybe it’s just a product of the fast fast now now now internet generation or maybe I’m just hardwired that way, I don’t know. But.
Here I am. Celebrating the little achievements.
On Friday, my fiance got home and we wanted to celebrate getting our first paycheck in 6 months. 6 months of relying on someone else to take care of us and here we are, on the road to self sufficiency. We wanted a nice dinner, even if it was just at Friday’s. But the baby was too tired and too fussy to go out (and we’re out of our frozen milk stash). So fiance took the baby, put him to sleep and I quickly put on some jeans and out the door I went.
Halfway to picking up food, I realized….
It had been several weeks that I had now been leaving the house without even thinking about it.
Liberated. I felt liberated. And free. And so many things. Pathetic, because really?! But yes, it is a struggle everyday for me to leave my bedroom so when I get dressed and walk out that front door without a second thought, it is small in the big picture but it is huge in my mind. It’s such a little achievement on my road to healing but it’s mine. I’m owning it.
And so should you.
What little achievements have you overlooked recently that maybe you shouldn’t have?
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hi, I made my way over here from RH (or one of the other many blogger networks I’m part of!), and I just wanted to comment to say this post really resonated with me.
I, too, want all results right now! And I’m quick to overlook little accomplishments while I strive for the bigger ones. I read recently that there is joy to be working in harmony with everything in the proper time. So those little accomplishments are what lead up to the bigger accomplishments, and the bigger accomplishments wouldn’t be the same if they weren’t made up of all those little ones. If that makes sense!
Lovely post xo
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Kendra,
That’s so awesome! There’s something about being self sufficient that can boost your self esteem in a way nothing else can. Congratulations on that. And I’m so happy you realized that you got out of the house without it being a struggle. That is a huge success, even if it seems insignificant. I’m celebrating with you.
My latest achievement was kind of a big deal for me. I was interviewed for a documentary about the things that led to my diagnosis of PTSD. I opened up on camera about some sad, horrifying, depressing, and ugly experiences from my past. But the most important part of that is this: I did so without breaking down, having flashbacks, or having my self esteem plummet. In fact, I felt strong and liberated all day long because of it.
Here’s to the little success stories in our lives. <3
–Janae
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I got a job recently and it is sales , i did well first week second week during lunch I had to take my script and race down wells to the walgreens on the corner and get my xanax filled. Promised I
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WOULD NOT DO IT ! ACHIEVEMENT worked 40 hrs and got my ass out of bed and managed
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