Self April 2012 ©Kendra Kantor
I’m sitting here, with a notebook laid before me. Scott is sitting in bed trying to calm our crying baby. I’ve been trying to work for the past 2 hours and keep getting interrupted to calm the fussiness, feed the baby or go for an ice cream run (yes, that was necessary). This is all a daily occurrence now, as to be expected with a newborn.
My notebook is blank and open to a new page. “Things I Want To Do” reads the headline at the top. The list is a page long, filled with projects and internet activities I’d like to accomplish daily, weekly, monthly and for the rest of the year or longer. I’m trying to organize, prioritize and generally make sense of my new life.
I’m looking for balance.
I’m trying to figure out what I need in my life and what things I can sacrifice so I can take care of and spend time with my newborn son. It’s proving a difficult task. I think my biggest problem is, I don’t know what I need in my life because I don’t know who I am, where I’m going or what I want my life to look like. So I want lots of options, things to try out and practice with to find where my goals, dreams and heart lie.
To the other mamas and lost souls out there, how do you find balance with life, work, family…and still have time to try to find yourself?