Moments With Mama Nature

Last month when we did our taxes, we got a lot more back than we thought we would and decided to buy mama a pretty new camera! My old dslr (a Nikon d70s) lasted me many years and through 3 states and back but it was on it’s last leg. After lots of research, I decided to get the Nikon d600, it’s a full frame (but great price) and it’s so lovely. I’m going to try not to nerd out here but I’ll tell ya, it was love at first sight and I was dolling over it the moment I picked it and I love it.

So when Elisabeth at The Mama Earth Project announced a photo a day project for March, I jumped on board so I could practice with my new camera. I know it’s been a while since I’ve shared a post like this, and I’ll talk about why that is and why I’m sharing now soon but for now, here are the first week of photos for The Moments with Mama Nature.

"Hands"

“Hands”

“Bare”

“Green”

“Skyline: Outside the bedroom window I grew up in. This was my view for the first 18 years of my life ans now I’m back again and my first son shares this house, my old room and this view as his for the first 10 months of his life (so far)”

“Sprout”

“Water”

“Birdseye View”
I’ve been sharing these images on instagram and I won’t go over step by step what I’m doing but it’s complicated. Photos are taken with my d600 (RAW format) and then edited with photoshop and then shared on instagram via instasize.

♥Kendra

 

 

03/12/2013
Like a Bird, photography | Thoughts

Soul to Soul

JEFFREY

Before you were born, I never realized just how much my soul needed your amazing soul in my life. You heal me, you need me, you make me insane and keep me sane in the same moments, I grow as you grow and learn as you learn. We smile together, laugh together and cry together. We bond and cuddle and spend time apart but always come back together. It is amazing. You are an amazing part of my life and I am so thankful to have you.

♥Kendra

 

 

03/06/2013
Like a Bird, motherhood | Tagged , | Thoughts(1)

Free Write Friday 2.22.13

This won’t be an every week occurrence but when I need it and when I have time, I want to come to this space and just do some free writing. I want to invite all of you to join me, because it is so healing and meditative to just let your words out. So please, open your draft to full screen (no distractions) and just write, do not filter, do not censor, just…write.

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I want so badly to be able to finish. To accomplish. To make something of use to someone else.
I sit here in my room, in the same place I feel like I was month ago.
Medications aren’t working.
I’m still so anxious I don’t know what to do with myself.
I am overwhelmed and panicked and anxious and depressed and in those moments when it’s just the three of us, just our little family I am so utterly in love I think my heart is going to burst from it all.

I close my eyes and don’t know how to go on. My hands are cramping from all the paining (walls) I’ve been doing lately but it still feels like we are no closer to our goal of moving from one bedroom for 3 people to about 600sq ft in the basement.

I’m overwhelmed.
I’m cold and thirsty and I want more coffee and I want chocolate but I shouldn’t.

My thoughts are so all over the place but that’s the point, that’s what free writing is…isn’t it?
I don’t want to do work. I’m almost done with a new blog design and re-brand but…but…I’m too overwhelmed to just insert images onto a page let alone try to figure out the confusing coding that must be done.

And so instead I sit here writing, trying to hard not to let my panic overtake me, trying to hard not to mindlessly watch tv.

I bow my head and plead with…someone…something who ever the hell is out there to just let the pain go away. I hope hope hope with all my hopes and dreams that my beautiful baby boy never has to suffer like this but I’m not naive enough to really believe it. He has bad genes in the mental health department on both sides and all I can really hope for is that we know enough, we love enough, we understand enough that he’ll be able to get through it and won’t have to feel like this for years like I have.

♥Kendra

 

 

If you join me in this Free Write Friday, send me a link via the comments or twitter so I can check out your page.

02/22/2013
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