It has been one hell of a week.
I don’t know why.
Toddler hood is fucking rough, man.
For the kid and for the stay at home mama/
Oh and for the working daddy who has to come home after a very long day and try to deal with a mama who just wants to cry and scream and go to sleep and not play with the kid anymore and a kid who just is fussy and crying for ABSOLUTELY no reason.
Ugh.
I’m writing and husband and the kid are doing the bedtime routine without me. I can’t remember the last time, if ever that has happened. I’m just so done with this week, ya know? I was supposed to go to art therapy this week and as I was about to leave the house i noticed my husband still had my license (we went to game works on a date and I didn’t want to carry a purse so he held my id) and soooo…I couldn’t drive.
It sucked, I was really in need of that self care and alone time that day and then I didn’t get it.
Still haven’t really.
I have gotten to work but not gotten out of the house for a bitch session or even a coffee and nature time just by myself. and we’re having family in this weekend so it’l have to wait until I don’t know when.
I know now would be a great time to practice with some of my guided meditations. But I hold off, I resist and why? what am I afraid of? That they will work and omg change my life? Or that they won’t and it will be a waste of time ?I’m not sure but maybe I’ll try one before bed tonight. I could use the breathing and relaxation time.I feel like I’ll never sleep tonight.
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